I have to start as I always do and that's by being transparent. I started this ministry almost 10 years ago but as I reflect back, all my motives were wrong. I just knew God had gifted me in various areas to work with multiple people from the underdog to the executive. I wanted to make my name famous. I wanted people to see me, I just wanted to be that "it" girl. Needless to say God in his infinite wisdom did not allow these things to occur when I was seeking. Frustrated and disgusted, I simply walked away from this area of ministry God has mandated over my life. Why did I walk away? Simple, it wasn't God's time hence the frustration and disgust for the lack of support.
Let's fast forward to today. God has been using me to blindly but truthfully minister to so many women I have encountered. I say blindly because I still don't realize it's ministry. I just call it being genuinely me loving on God's people. As people send me messages of gratitude for allowing God to use me to minister to their spirit, I often travel back to the last 10 years and now understand why God allowed the holdup with where I saw myself going. Are you ready for it? I WASN'T READY ON ANY LEVEL!!!! I was still bitter and hurt over life's tribulations. I was just trying to keep busy to cover up my spiritual, emotional, and mental immaturity. (Thank God for growth!)
I honestly know and understand that the process may be a long one or one with many disappointments but you have to TRUST THE PROCESS. God knows what's best for us and He will NEVER steer us wrong. Just wait on His cue to move and remind yourself that His promises NEVER return void. Stay encouraged in Him, His Word, and His love for YOU.
Psalm 24:17 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.