Today I was driving taking a trip to IKEA when a spirit of nostalgia began to overtake me. I immediately summoned Siri and asked her to turn on "Dominionaire" by Canton Jones as I vibed out to the album that I had included in my daily rotation years ago. My spirit was still not satisfied as I found myself blurting out to Siri to go back further for "Thy Kingdom Come" by CeCe Winans as soon as the first album finished. For the average music lover, this may seem reasonable to want to hear music that you haven't heard in a while, but I knew this was different. My spirit was going back to a place where I believed in my heart of hearts I had matured.
Back in 2008-2009, I was experiencing all types of personal turmoil. My son, Tre, was diagnosed with autism a few months earlier. I exited my marriage of the past four years and took my small children and moved into a DV shelter. My job downsized its management team, and I was released. You know how it goes, the last hired, the first fired. Life as I had known it was changing, and I wasn't too sure which way things were going to go.
Living in New York City, I was a daily listener to WLIB 1190, so I was familiar with certain songs as I heard them from day to day. One song that stood out from the rest at the time was "Waging War." I loved it so much that I ran to Timeless Treasures to purchase the CD. For that season of my life, it had become my anthem and declaration.
"I'm tired of principalities messing with me (Waging War)
I'm tired of the devil stealing from me (Waging War)
I promise he won't get one more thing (Waging War)
I'm taking it back; taking territory (Waging War)
I'm ready for the battle I'm ready to win (Waging War)
My weapon of power He lives within (Waging War)
I can't be defeated the enemy's gotta flee (Waging War)
I'm taking it back; taking territory."
Listening to it today (on repeat I might add) caused me to question myself and do some self-observation. Had I spiritually forgotten the words to my self proclaimed anthem? Had I lost the hunger spiritually to demolish the Goliath's in my life? Then I began to question things in general. Did we forget that we were waging war against the enemy and not one another?
Ephesians 6:12 (KJV)
For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
Being transparent, sometimes it's easy to forget that which you know and, that which you believe when you take your eyes off the goal and look elsewhere. Trials and tribulations happen in life that makes it too easy. As we are helpers one to another, I challenge you to take the words of Waging War personal and like CeCe sang make the declaration "I'm ready for the battle I'm ready to win."