Daughter. Divorcee. Wife. Mother. Co-parent. Sister. Aunt....Overcomer.
Oldest child born premature and receives a tracheostomy
Mother transitions from this life to the next
Married
Father also transitions
Gave birth to a fetal demise
Have a rainbow baby
Have an unexpected pregnancy
Have a child diagnosed with autism
Divorced
all under the age of 30.
These circumstances would be grounds for anyone to lose their mind, but there was a higher purpose for my life. Many have wondered how I have been able to do it. My answer, "God." He kept me through every trial I have faced. Has it always been easy? NO!!! Did I ever want to give up? Many times!!! For me, my breaking and defining moment happened (isn't it funny how God does that?) based around a conversation I had with my oldest daughter who was eight years old at the time.
It may sound crazy but allow me to explain:
When I was 23 years old, I met and married my first husband after six months of dating. This was no fairytale romance to talk about, but one filled with numerous arguments and fistfights. After some time, I didn't know who I was anymore. I started to believe I was at blame for all of the cheating, lies, and disrespect by this man. With all that was going on, it didn't occur to me that I wasn't the issue here. He was the one with the problem, and it didn't become evident until I had a heart to heart talk with my daughter and she felt that the disrespect he was showing to me was just as disrespectful and trickling over unto her.
That was one of the most real conversations I have ever had to have with anyone. It was in that one conversation that I realized that I had eyes looking at me for strength. I could NOT let them down. I hadn't even realized that I stopped fighting and succumbed to the pressures of a dysfunctional life and marriage. I had just stopped and that all had to change immediately. (Let me be honest about something. Through the majority of these moments, I was saved. Transparent moment, I still didn't KNOW God.) At that exact moment, I chose to do whatever necessary to reclaim my life and whatever ounce of dignity and respect I had left. It was here that my genuine relationship with God began. I now know that this experience was sent from God to birth His purpose in me. Through His Word, He introduced me to "Tanaka Caprice."
I am a firm believer that women from all walks of life need to understand the strength they have from within. In the midst of my go through, I saw the absence of people's testimonies and I know from experience that sometimes all a person needs is someone to give them that glimpse of hope and extra push. I didn't go through my valley experience to keep it to myself. Someone else needed to know how to get out and move forward too.
This is the purpose God kept me for. To be committed to sharing my testimony, empowering sisters to rebuild, and help move past the dysfunction. My story may not be your story, nor my struggles your struggles but God is still the same. If He has done it for me through every trial, He can and will do the same for you.
Mother transitions from this life to the next
Married
Father also transitions
Gave birth to a fetal demise
Have a rainbow baby
Have an unexpected pregnancy
Have a child diagnosed with autism
Divorced
all under the age of 30.
These circumstances would be grounds for anyone to lose their mind, but there was a higher purpose for my life. Many have wondered how I have been able to do it. My answer, "God." He kept me through every trial I have faced. Has it always been easy? NO!!! Did I ever want to give up? Many times!!! For me, my breaking and defining moment happened (isn't it funny how God does that?) based around a conversation I had with my oldest daughter who was eight years old at the time.
It may sound crazy but allow me to explain:
When I was 23 years old, I met and married my first husband after six months of dating. This was no fairytale romance to talk about, but one filled with numerous arguments and fistfights. After some time, I didn't know who I was anymore. I started to believe I was at blame for all of the cheating, lies, and disrespect by this man. With all that was going on, it didn't occur to me that I wasn't the issue here. He was the one with the problem, and it didn't become evident until I had a heart to heart talk with my daughter and she felt that the disrespect he was showing to me was just as disrespectful and trickling over unto her.
That was one of the most real conversations I have ever had to have with anyone. It was in that one conversation that I realized that I had eyes looking at me for strength. I could NOT let them down. I hadn't even realized that I stopped fighting and succumbed to the pressures of a dysfunctional life and marriage. I had just stopped and that all had to change immediately. (Let me be honest about something. Through the majority of these moments, I was saved. Transparent moment, I still didn't KNOW God.) At that exact moment, I chose to do whatever necessary to reclaim my life and whatever ounce of dignity and respect I had left. It was here that my genuine relationship with God began. I now know that this experience was sent from God to birth His purpose in me. Through His Word, He introduced me to "Tanaka Caprice."
I am a firm believer that women from all walks of life need to understand the strength they have from within. In the midst of my go through, I saw the absence of people's testimonies and I know from experience that sometimes all a person needs is someone to give them that glimpse of hope and extra push. I didn't go through my valley experience to keep it to myself. Someone else needed to know how to get out and move forward too.
This is the purpose God kept me for. To be committed to sharing my testimony, empowering sisters to rebuild, and help move past the dysfunction. My story may not be your story, nor my struggles your struggles but God is still the same. If He has done it for me through every trial, He can and will do the same for you.